So a lot of stuff has been going on, and I feel like I should give you guys the gist of it.
So for right now, this is all the major stuff in my life right now.
About a month ago, I came out as trans online, after I'd told my friends and gotten a lot of support. Everyone here has been really great about it, too.
Since I came out though, I've been really struggling with my sexuality, and who I am.
In the past couple weeks, I started to realize I've been losing my attraction to girls, and tried so fucking hard to change it, but there's nothing I can do.
For obvious reasons, I had to talk to my girlfriend about it.
So, long story short, I'm single now.
And now she hates me, and I hate myself, and I'm really worried about her.
She's the most amazing person that I've ever met, and she's the only reason that I was comfortable enough with myself to come out in the first place. I owe so much to her.
I don't think she wants be my friend anymore, or even talk to me.
And now she's left deviantArt because of me. So if anyone reading this knows how to contact her outside of dA, I would really appreciate it if you talked to her. She really needs someone right now, and she doesn't want it to be me.
Besides that, I guess, I've been doing okay health-wise. I've been in more pain than usual, but life has been stressful, so until I get some tests done next month, I don't know if there's a deeper issue beyond stress.
I've started saving up to move into a new place where I could actually be myself, sooooo
Hopefully that's something that can happen.